Update on Health!

Been a few months since I've updated...seems like a week! Time flies! Well, I've gotten even worse since I last posted. Can't remember what I posted last, but doc had me on Doxycycline...which I can only assume stirred up things in my body which caused my symptoms to get worse. I didn't even know I had psoriasis when I first went to the Rheumy...after I started meds it came out on my arms and hands. Doc said I had it from the top of my head to the bottom of my feet and I believe he was right. My joints and overall discomfort level grew after I began treatment. The only other things he had me on was an nsaid and thyroid med and estrogen. Anyway! The last appt I told him I felt worse...joints really hurt. He looked at them and said, yep...you need to be on methyltrexate. Wasn't happy to hear that. Its a drug commonly used for chemo...mine would be of lower dose by weekly injection. Let me pause here and interject a few thoughts. Everything in my life is intertwined by my life and faith in God...as should be for a Christian. Anyone that knows me knows that I HATE medications, not thrilled with doctors...in love with Barley Green...: ). But quite honestly...in the words of Dr. Phil....how's it been workin for ya?? : ) Not so good. Caused me to be very thoughtful lately about why I think like I do...examining myself in light of all that is going on. I think I will always be health conscious to a fault...but I really believe a lot of it is that I'm trying to be in control of my life,many times instead of letting God have control. Going to a doctor, taking medicatons...these things are putting control in another persons hands and not my own. Requiring faith in something outside myself. I've had 2 treatments of methyltrexate...changed the nsaid...and the last few days I have felt a definite change in my pain level and joint pain....a clearer feeling in my head. All the diet changes, lifestyle habits....none of that did a thing....I believe the meds are working. Hmmmm.....I think God is teaching me something! My ways, my research, are imperfect, as is our human bodies on this earth. I guess I always assumed natural ways are the best because that is maybe how God originally intended them to be...but as in all things...we can begin to trust in ourselves and our own reasonings....even trusting in natural alternatives themselves instead of our Lord for ultimate healing. Not even to mention the fact that God may never bring healing to me...that needs to be okay with me...because His purposes and Glory are to be pre-eminent above all else. On the other hand...to take medications, go to the doctor....while gorging on food not fit for consumption is not right either! Here I go again! lol! But there are specific Bible verses on how to treat our bodies and appetites on this earth that cannot be disobeyed without consequence. This is truth. I have such a difficult doctor too which brings more complex issues to my struggles. I'm actually beginning to feel like there may light at the end of the tunnel...through medications which baffles me! : ) And this difficult doctor may be the one God led me to....He works in unusual ways! : ) So I take one day at a time. Stronger medication may be on the horizon for me...not sure at this point. I'm assuming hes going to see what this med does first. Will keep posted!